5/7/1999
	May is here and she is getting her strength back. She is starting to feel much better, but has yet to regain the weight she dropped just shortly after becoming pregnant. The doctor says not to worry about it just yet but to keep an eye on it. I certainly am starting to feel the jealousy that I’ve read about. I’m afraid to tell her I am jealous and that I wish I could be in her place. I’m afraid she will think I am trying to belittle her aches and pains. I’m not. Ever since we listened to the heartbeat, I've became more and more jealous of her. I wish I had a baby to hold right now. I’m just truly jealous that she gets to have the baby for nine months all to herself. Ok, I’m selfish too.	Click to Listen